It's time.

I'm pleased w myself.
Cos' i think my brain has suddenly turned matured or opened or whatever you call it.
I'm starting to turn back to th 'study type of charmaine' in Sec 3.
(:
I'm so happy.
Computer isn't my everything now.
I just use it after i complete everything.

So i've done my hmwks today.
Maths basically.
Caught up w what i was not sure and stuffs.

I'm so gonna work really hard and achieve th results i want at th end of th day.

Thanks alot ms tan.
If it isn't you,i won't have th motivation to do well again.
But i hope my results will not detoriate ):

So Chinese tuition today was alright.
Funny is th word to describe it.
HAHA!

I've put my Tagboard back again.
So keep tagging alright readers?
:3

Many tests next week.
I've to start studying earlier.
Keep going,Charmaine.
You can do it ! ._.

♥

Probably we aren't meant to be.

Jeff's stupid hand,spoil my pictureee!-.-

Daphne's carrying Charmaine orh!:3

ALOHAA!
I'm like having th best mood i've ever had after these few weeks.
Cos' i had th greatest talk on earth w th best teacher,Ms tan wah sing.
She rocks can?
I so regret scolding her on my blog th other time.
Now,i love her---My best teacher.

I cried aft Physics retest today.
Many things happened,but i won't go in detail,anw it's just about stress thingy.
Then th first person that came to my mind to talk to is her.
Had a nice chat of more than an hour w her.
Super nice?
Talked about super many things.
And sister,she praised you!
:D

So i've decided to work thrice as harder in my Sciences.
If after this term i still cmi,then i'll drop;
fair enough eh?

Th first thing to do tmrw after i wake up is to complete my Maths hmwk.
Hoho! :B

And i realised i really can't live w/o sweets even for a day.
Sigh~

Tuitions again tmrw and Sunday.
Can die laaaaaaa):

Byeeeeeeeeeeee.__.

Vulnerable.

I'm so tired but yet i can't go to sleep ;x

30minutes of sleep ytd night?
I was so sleepy in school today.
If i knew then straightaway don't sleep.
LOL.

School was okay today?

Going home was th LOL part.
Saw Junyao at 950's berth today.
Ling and i went home GL-ing on th way w him.
Kept making fun of him and H-ornyy.
Super funny lo.

I guess i'm really talented in teasing people:p

Ciao.

Scenario.

Ongong and Bill selecting songs.

H-ornnyyy!

Yeonhao singing.

Happy CNY peeps!
Yesterday;

Woke up in th morning.
Bathed,prepared then off for visiting.
Angbaoangbaos:p
Went around then came home at around 3+?
Slacked ard and watched tv till around 4.30 my relatives came.
Then Kelvin called,asked whether Ongong and i wanna go Wanxuan's house anot.

Called Ongong up.
She was sleeping-.-
But then after awhile she called back and said she was going for a movie w her family.
I tagged along too:B
-
So we watched 'Th wedding game';by Fann wong and Christopher lee.
Not bad?
One is pretty and one is hawtt .___.

Went for dinner at a Korean restaurant.
Thanks Ongong's family! (:
Wanted to go to Wanxuan's hse at that time but she said th party had ended alrdy so we went to Yeonhao's hse instead.
We were like th only ones at his hse for th first time.
Super good?
Went to his Ktv room and sang for 2.5hrs?
SHIOK AH~~~
Hoho:B
We were all so super high and crazy can?
Simply scream and stuffs.
My dad came to fetch us at 11.
Sent Ongong,H-ornyy and Bill home.
Homed.

Today;

Woke up at 9+.
Prepared and off to meet Ongong at th Taxi stand.
Sorry i was late ;x

First,we stopped at Cwp.
Ong wanted to get her handphone top-up card.
Saw *someone who quickly hid his face as soon as he saw us.
Aiyo,must friendly abit mah,at least say hello :p

Wanted to get something from Power 9 but it wasn't opened so went to Mo's hse straight aft that.
Had lunch at her house.
Th food was nice.
Thanks ah Mo! :]
Left at 1.
Met my mum at Woodlands and off we went to my Grandma's house.
Collected a total of 12angbaos just from one house.
Hahahaa.
Yayyy!
I want more laaaa :B
Greedy me...
Homed afterward.

I don't want school tmrw laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! ):

A new page of life.

I'm okay alrdy everyone.
Thanks alot to all those who cheered me up and stuffs.
I appreciate it alot .___.

So after one night's of thinking,i think i should not harp onto my unluckyness th past few days...
I should look to th future.
After cny,everything's gonna be back like th past,my luck's gonna get better.
*prays*

Happy early CNY peepos! ^^

Cheer up to those who are having problems and stuff like that.
Think of it like me,positively,after Cny,all our problems will be washed away..

I've been practising River flows in you these few days.
Four pages in total and i'm done w two pages.
I wanna learn everything asap! .___.

So yesterday,Jeff treated us to Ichiban for Japanese food ;p
Nicenice!
Thanks alot ah ! :D
You rock la...
He paid half for my two cardigans too;one grey,one electric blue.
Total $40,he paid $20 i paid $20.
I've like many jackets now can?
Can change different ones everyday luh. (:
Hoho.

So,i'm gonna start everything afresh.
Probably won't sleep tonight?
Can help parents and grandparents to 'zeng shou' it seems.
Bye readers.

-{Edited/}

So i had Steamboat for Reunion dinner(?)
It was nice luh,but i was super full can?

After dinner went outside to play fireworks w Bro.
Then our neighbour came out and joined us too.
(:
I have problems lighting candles w th wind.
-.-

So there's an eclipse tmrw afternoon?
From 4.30 onwards,for about 2hours i think...
Remember not to look at th sun at that time;
it will do great damage to your pretty eyes.

So i'm trying hard to stay up till morning tonight.
Any kind soul is willing to accompany me by talking to me?
I doubt anyone will be as stupid to be willing to do that.

Tomorrow,tomorrow!
I can wear my new clothes.
:p

Ciao.

I wish i wasn't born.

FUCK THIS LIFE,FUCK THIS WORLD,FUCK THAT PICKPOCKETTTT! _|_

Dead shyttt.
So i was pickpocket-ed today?
Same as rob can?
I was there w Christine,choosing clothes at City square when this malay guy took my wallet from my bag.
So he snatched my wallet away.
Me and Christine ran to catch him;to no avail.
I called for a male passerby to help chase...
TH FUCKING PICPOCKET RAN DOWN TH STAIRS!
Wth did you snatch my wallet for?
Why th hell was i so unlucky?
Why was it me out of so many others?
FUCK THIS LIFE!
Really man.I feel like scolding all vulgarities i know.
Yesterday,fell down at Mo's void deck by ORANGE.
Secondly,TWS called my mum.
Very good!
God's so fair and nice to me.
TODAY,MY WALLET GOT SNATCHED BY A PICKPOCKET!

Wth did i do wrong to deserve all these man god?
Th only lucky thing i received from you this year was my Chinese 'O's results.
I'm really collapsing.
Why did i had to be born man?
To be a victim of all these bad luck eh?
I've to re-do my Ez-link card and Atm card thanks to th fuck fellow.
I wish you get BANG-ed by a car as soon as you leave your house.
Use my money to buy anything,wear liao also suay!
FUCK YOU!

First TWS then YOU.
YOU TWO PA KAK ALRDY TGT TO MAKE TH DEATH OF ME AH?!
Want me go grave faster also not like that okay!

So all these unhappiness and everything was caused by me in this family eh?

I wish i die this very moment.

I don't wish those i love and who are close to me to be brought down by my unluckyness too.

I hate 2009!
It simply sucks to th coreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;x

~To leave is th best choice...

It all came in one blow.

So thanks alot ah MS TAN WAH SING!
Call my mum up eh?
You think my mum is so free to take your calls ah?
Still comment about me till like that...
FUCK THIS LIFE;F YOU! _|_

I cried terribly just now.
I cried while talking to Mo and Mum on th phone just now.
Idk why?
Probably all my stress was triggered by her and it all came out in one blow.
So i'm now banned?
Can't play th comp during Schooldays.
And i promised to be a really good,hardworking schoolgirl now.
But so what?
I don't even know what exactly am i stressed and fcuked up about.
All i know is; i'm stressed,very stressed and i often wanna cry.
But what's th real reason,idk...
Maybe because of Studies,nope,that's only a surface reason.
It's to my thinking probably,about many things...
Family matters,friends,life,you, make me really confused?
I somehow lost my direction in life,in search of a light that can bring me cross th dark night.
;x

I told Mo that i don't wanna live on anymoreee.
There's nothing here that i will hold on to alrdy.
Maybe there is,but it's insignificant compared to th pain i'm suffering.
As a normal schoolgirl,it's too much for me to take alrdy.
I can't speak everything out,cos' somethings are just P&C.
Hence,i push everything back to myself.
You see,in everything,there's a limit a person can push to.
I love to stay ard in Singapore,cos' i can smile there.
Back here,i face th real challenge of being myself; i face all that i don't wanna face.
Thou' i always say i wanna go to Australia,but i know that deep inside,it's just because i wanna leave here,cos' i think by going there,i'm gonna leave all my problems and troubles here.
Going there,to start everything afresh=No troubles.
I'm naive eh?
Probably.

I don't wanna dissapoint my parents,th only way to not do that is by achieving excellent results.
But w my current state,it's near to impossible.

Oh man,living is such a pain:/

Suddenly,th lyrics of a song came running throu' my mind...
--
Take me away
A secret place
A sweet escape
Take me away
Take me away
To better days
Take me away
A hiding place
--

I hope someone can bring me to escape from this place alrdy.
Everything sucks here.

F this life.

Hurt.

Didn't go to school today because of two simpleeeeee reasons.
1.Stomache.
2.Didn't prepare for tests.
:/
Running away eh?

Woke up early in th morning at 8.47*see,i'm so detailed*
Then went downstairs immediately to do homeworks.
I've thought throu' everything alrdy.
I don't care what people thinks of me alrdy,cos' i just can't be bothered(:
I'm gonna really concentrate in my studies now and after CNY,probably i will try not to online daily and stuffs.
To start of,maybe i will just be online every 2-3 days?
Homework and studies is really priority this year...

Misunderstandings?
Let it be.

Going to school tmr and aft th celebrations gonna go out w clique to Seoul garden to eat?
:B
Saturday;going Far-east and Bugis w Ongong,Mo they all again for shopping and stuffs?

Adios.


{/Ps:I love my friends! ^^

{/Ps: i love you !

--

Woke up in a still-so-sleepy mode this morning at 9.
):
I wanna sleep more laaaa.!
Sigh~

Went for Piano and learnt alot about some great musicians of th history.
At least that's interesting for a boring morning?

Lunched.
Chinese tuition next.
It was so-so luh.

I'm going to Sg early tmr for my Scholarship award thingy.
(:
Sleep early?
I guess not bah.
Haa.

Ciao.

We are somehow just close strangers.

At City Square's J.C.O donut store w Ongong.
{Thursday}

Looks yummy eh?It tastes 110% good too:B

--
--
Like what afini wrote in her blog,i think it's true.
In another few months,which actually will pass very fast,every single one of us will be seperated.
To pursue what you want in life.
Some may study in JCs,Polys or even go overseas.
Thus,our life will change again.
A new start,a fresh beginning.
I will miss every single one of you guys,who appeared in my life.
I know it's too early to say all these now.
But i'm scared i'll soon be too busy to remember to write all these stuffs.
So remember,be determined in whatever you dear readers out there do and carve out a career of your own;no matter here or somewhere else.
Good luck !
.____.

--
School was okay today.
Except for th real boring 3pathetic periods of Mathematics can really make Charmaine sleep=.=
So easily.
Still have Piano quite early tmr morning):
Sian;my dear Saturday Morning should be reserved for Sleep instead of piano.
So i'll change th time after tmr bah?

So after school today met Ling and Mo.
Lunched@Pizzahut.
We are their oh-so-frequent visitors alrdy can?
Always go there eat.
-
-
-
Ling went off after food;
Mo and me went to meet Ming then off to Party-worlddd !
^^
My favourite part is Singing to De-stress laaaaa...

Andand,Afini's my Ultimate-Biatch♥
Okay,i'm gonna go Facebook-ing.
Adios.

Stop these nonsense...

Please kindly stop spreading those super untrueeee rumours cannn?!
I know simply spreading things like i like so and so is fun...
But please control la okay?
If you really like talking nonsense so much,come la,i teach you...
Spread about you and someone else.
Don't spread till people think i'm a flirt or whatever-.-
Like different people everyday.
One day this guy,tmr another :/
And you said i like to Attract Attention.
Since so,fine.
I will try to control myself not to type everything out like how i feel and stuff in my blog.
I don't understand...
Sorry kay?I'm just that kind of AA type la okay! =.=

Do you even know what's humans feeling?
Probably you won't.

I don't understand whether is it that i'm really unlucky these days or what.
Everything seems to go wrong :C
Criticising people is very fun uhs?
Why me of all?
I just don't know what i did wrong/offend people to deserve all these.
Sorry to all i offended.
If in anyway.

My life isn't useful/meaningful anymore.
If not for my few really good and nice friends.
I love them.
(:
Thanks all of you guys for being part of me;my life journey.
Or where would i stand by now?
I would have died w/o my family and friends.
<3

That day,when i coincidentally met you at Sg custom.
I thought i was dreaming.
It was a long time since i last saw you.
And when we walked closer tgt,i literally was gonna collapse:x
Like you are so perfect..
A gift from god can?

Should i confess?

I hate Physics lessons now too.
Why do my friends and myself pathetically always get picked on?
I felt so sad for Daphne today.
She cried.
It's th first time i see her cry.
Cheer up la Daphne!
Still got Charmaine diii! ^^
And our dearest Physics teacher,please stop picking on your innocent students?
Thanks.

It's repeating history again.
I'm sick and tired to explain.

So near yet so far.

I'm stressed up,super stressed up cans?
Firstly,i can't make up my mind on whether to drop my pure science anot.
I'm scared i will regret aft dropping.
Currently,i've two choices.
--
First,drop my pure science;take combined sciences and concentrate it getting an A1.
-
Second,continue taking Pure sciences and really chiong for it.

See,there are alrdy so many people scoring good results for Pure science wanting to drop to combined science.
Then my result's lousier than them;i should drop too logically?
I don't know luh.
It's just so fckin' difficult to make a decision.
I've to answer th consequences(if any) for my right/wrong decision.
:/

Went to find Ms gan and Ms loke for advice today.
They both advised me to think it through longer cos' they think i didn't do well in Pure chem because i'm plain Lazy ;x
And fyi,i'm really very lazy.

So anyone,please kindly advise th now oh-so-confused Charmaine?

Next,i think i'm starting to hate my life.
Because of everything.
Life's just a suffering.
Don't mind me saying that please.
I don't understand why *some people just like to keep annoying me by saying i wear SINGLETS and stuff.
I'm a girl and you insist i'm a boy.
I know i did you wrong by cursing you to get a F9 for your 'O's Malay and you really got a C6 aft that.
I was really guilty.
But you?
At least i had th basic courtesy to apologise.
I don't mind you making fun of me a lil'...
Cos' i do that to people too.
But sometimes,you can be such an annoying freak okay?
I scream at you,hit you and scold you...
NO CHANGE AT ALL!
Wth.
Just tell me wth you want from me luh can?
From my hair to my dressing to my pictures.
None of it you can just shut up and mind your own business.
I hereby apologise for seldom teasing you but you don't stop you get it?
Omfg.
I'm in th state of collapsing down anytime alrdy.
So tired.
Yet i've to bear w all these grudges.

--
Thirdly,i desperately wanna take off my hair extensions.
It's so fugly to me now -.-

And lastly,i'm sorry for my irritating-ness/lameness lately.
I just like to irritate people to vent out my stress in another way.
If you are kind enough,let me irritate you and i'll be happy for my life.
Please don't get upset or hurt by whatever i say.
Thanks^^

I'm so sorry for this post.
I just need to release everything out.
Thanks.


Youarenoonetocommentme.

Thanks alot...

So i've got my results after a long time waiting and nervous-ing.
:p
I got A1 (!)
Can you believe it?
Hahaha.
Congrats to all who did well yo!

Thanks to all who wished me luck,esp to those who calmed my fear down.
Okay.It seems LOL right?
Like one subject nia then i need to be so scared.
It will be your turn soon.
See how scared you will turn then.
It's like if you don't do well for this,then your dreams to get probably a better *single-digit score will be dashed.
(:

So i was controlling my happiness when Ms gan read my result out today.
I wanted to scream or shout out.
But i did do that w Yuying of course.
Haha.
Cos' only we two from th same class really felt th fear ;x

My parents and my grandma is happy of course.
In fact,very happy ! :D
Th best thing to make parents let you do what you want is to get good results.
Bad things also become good things:p

So went to Causeway to celebrate aft sch.
Dined@Pizzahut.
We had to queue in cos' lots of people went there to celebrate aft th release of th results.
Fancy us doing that just because of one subject right?
Haha.
Went w Qx,Ongong,Mo,Ling,Vinesh.

Aft eating,went to take pictures outside cwp.
We practically went wild la okay~
Haha.
Saw Yonghaooooo!
Went home w him and Ongong.
Miss them la.
That van of mine.
Sighhh.

Bye.
<3 face="georgia">

I control my own life.

Hohoho:B

I'm so super happy today.
Cos' i went shopping ytd@ City square.
Th best part is i bought 2 items.
2super great items that can make me smile while sleeping.

1.Black Everlast Jacket.
2.Solvil & Titus watch.

Haha.
Super happy can?
Thou it cost my dad a few hundreds for th two items.
Thanks daddy!
:D

I super hearts th jacket can?
It's super cool.
Black+gold.
(:
Th watch is black in colour too.

Today;
Went to have Roti prata for breakfast.
Nice(!)
Then went to th temple to pray.
Cos' tmr is th release of my Chinese 'O's.
A1A1A1 laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa?!
Scared bodoh.
I'm having tuition later at 4.
Fun again?
Hope so.
.___.

Ciao.

Womaniser.

I broke out into tears again just now.
It's always on th same topic.
Why can't you just give me a direct answer?
Th thought of it tortures me.
There are reasons that's difficult for me to say out why i made that decision.
Fuck this year man(!)
Seriously sucks.
Everyone seems to face alot of problems and stress this year.
2009.
;x

--

Went to Mo's hse to stay th past two nights.
It was real fun,as in funny..
Haha :B
Her siblings just keep making fun of me;p
But i like them.
<3

And i've decided to go to TP if i wanna go into a poly.
It's really huge.
And th main reason is....
LOL.

Anw,we are getting our Chinese 'O's results this monday.
Wish us luck man.
(:
A1 please?!
I'm so nervous.
And so is Christine and Mo.
I'm not sure if i've th time to blog th next two days so i'll wish an early good luck to all those who are getting their results on monday.
You all will be lucky :]
I'll wish myself luck too.
Haha.

I've decided not to blog and play th computer too much.
Study is priority this year.
Nothing else.
I can enjoy my whole life after this few f-sucking study years.
Rather than enjoying life now and regret when you are old and can't do anything anymore.
So all of my dear readers out there,please study hard esp if you all are taking 'O's this year too.
.___.

Ciao.

I'm so afraid to face this all alone.
Problems seem to keep coming to find me.
Nothing feels right w/o you w me...

Sorrow.

I cried when i heard what you said to me.
But i hold back my tears.
Afraid that you will see it.
You all will never understand...
NEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Feel it.

Hello.

School's okay.
Except th fact that i fought w my asshole again.
Thanks for th sweets Sister! (:
--

But i don't like my Chemistry class people.
Cos' Daphne and Keatying they all are all in th other chem class.
):
Makes me feel lonely/sad.
I hate being lonely fyi.
That kind of feeling sucks to th ultimate core i tell you :/
Hope their appeal to our class will be a successful one.

So went to collect th spaghetti top from wt aft school today.
For Daphne yo! :D
Her belated belated belated b'day pressieeeeeeeeeeeee ^^
Sorry,cos' i really had no idea what to get for her.
She has like many things alrdy?

Lunch w Mo and Ling.
Talked about th Poly open house this coming Wed,Thurs and Fri.
Staying at Mo's hse on Wed and Thurs.
(:
So unless i can manage to snatch th computer from her,i won't blog. *Evil laughs*
Hahahaa.

Homed w Ling.
Chattttychatttchattttttttt (!)

Tschau.

Miss.

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST 38-Friend,NG QIXIN (!)
:D

--
--
--
Hola.

I've decided i shouldn't post so much alrdy.
Cos' my parents say Computer doesn't actually bring you anywhere in life.
Studies does.
So i'll TRY not to post as much.
Haha.
But probably it's useless also luh:p

Anw,thou th start of 2009 wasn't lucky for me in any way;
but i do hope that i'll turn lucky for th following days.
Sigh~

Anw,thanks to those who asked about my leg.
Special thanks to Jerene for what you wrote on your blog ^^

So there's school again tmr ;x
Bad for me.
Good for you guys out there?

So there will be tuition today for me.
Good.
Haha.
I personally love this tuition th best la.
Cos' crap th most.
.___.
Esp w some* ppl around.
It's difficult for people who are as quiet as me to quiet down too . *Laughs*
:p:p:p

I'm going for Breakfast alrdy.

Bye;for now ♥

Bad things always happen to me):

Right leg.

Left Leg.

--

I sprained my leg everyone.

Yes..
Sprained it badly.
I couldn't even walk in th morning.
):
Suck it la.
Darm painful can?
My right leg got sprained and my left leg kena blister.
Wah.
Sibeh suay these two days D:

Just came back from visiting th Chinese Sinseh.
My right leg got bandaged and left got plastered.
sad right?

I so don't have th mood to go for Chinese Tuition today.
Tmr still have A-maths/Chem tuition+Piano.
Sec4; a real fckin' disaster.

Bye.

Strange.

School Reopen.
Sucks?
Today's an unlucky day for me.
From th moment i step out of my house.
Everything seems wrong and odd:/
Idk why.(?)
But it's over alrdy la.

I'm so super sleepy can?
--

After school today,went out w Mo,Ling.
Trained to Amk.
Ate there.

Okay.
We exchanged Belated Christmas Pressies okay:D
I bought Mo a Watch?
She bought me a Disney cup:p
Thanks uh!
We bought Ling a Dispenser.
Hoho.
:B

Me and Ling commented about someone i knew when we saw her while going home.
Found that my eyesight really had some problem last time.
;x

Unexpected.

Did many things today.
But i'm lazy to elaborate:/

And i realised i've grown taller cos' my skirt is much shorter):

School's starting tomorrow.
Sad/Happy?
You decide.

For me,it's a disaster.
Waking up four in th morning.
;x
How pathetic?
And our dearest Charmaine hasn't finish her homeworksD: !

Scoldings?
Nevermind,i think i won't be th only one not completing my work.
Or am i?

LOL.
Ciao.

Happy 2009 peeps! :D