It all came in one blow.

So thanks alot ah MS TAN WAH SING!
Call my mum up eh?
You think my mum is so free to take your calls ah?
Still comment about me till like that...
FUCK THIS LIFE;F YOU! _|_

I cried terribly just now.
I cried while talking to Mo and Mum on th phone just now.
Idk why?
Probably all my stress was triggered by her and it all came out in one blow.
So i'm now banned?
Can't play th comp during Schooldays.
And i promised to be a really good,hardworking schoolgirl now.
But so what?
I don't even know what exactly am i stressed and fcuked up about.
All i know is; i'm stressed,very stressed and i often wanna cry.
But what's th real reason,idk...
Maybe because of Studies,nope,that's only a surface reason.
It's to my thinking probably,about many things...
Family matters,friends,life,you, make me really confused?
I somehow lost my direction in life,in search of a light that can bring me cross th dark night.
;x

I told Mo that i don't wanna live on anymoreee.
There's nothing here that i will hold on to alrdy.
Maybe there is,but it's insignificant compared to th pain i'm suffering.
As a normal schoolgirl,it's too much for me to take alrdy.
I can't speak everything out,cos' somethings are just P&C.
Hence,i push everything back to myself.
You see,in everything,there's a limit a person can push to.
I love to stay ard in Singapore,cos' i can smile there.
Back here,i face th real challenge of being myself; i face all that i don't wanna face.
Thou' i always say i wanna go to Australia,but i know that deep inside,it's just because i wanna leave here,cos' i think by going there,i'm gonna leave all my problems and troubles here.
Going there,to start everything afresh=No troubles.
I'm naive eh?
Probably.

I don't wanna dissapoint my parents,th only way to not do that is by achieving excellent results.
But w my current state,it's near to impossible.

Oh man,living is such a pain:/

Suddenly,th lyrics of a song came running throu' my mind...
--
Take me away
A secret place
A sweet escape
Take me away
Take me away
To better days
Take me away
A hiding place
--

I hope someone can bring me to escape from this place alrdy.
Everything sucks here.

F this life.